| Here we go again... Today I was sitting around at work, after a particularly crappy meeting about portals (Yeah. You read that correctly), feeling burnt-out and more than a little sorry for myself. I came to a conclusion about burn-out: it's a self-discipline problem (at least for me)... I think. Part of me is still saying that I don't need to be happy with work I just need to do it. If that part is right then burn-out is an illusion, an excuse for not just sucking it up and getting the job done. On the other hand, if I should be happy with my job then it's a real problem. I have such a history of poor self-discipline that I am really doubting myself here. Ugh. Something positive came out of this, however. I have resolved to improve my discipline. I don't think it will solve any problems but it will allow me to stop worrying about/feeling guilty about things that need to be done that I am neglecting... instead, I will just do them. That alone is well worthwhile, I think. We'll see how I hold up. :) When it comes right down to it I suppose this is my problema numero uno. "If I were twice the man I could be, I'd still be half of what you need" (whaddya know, two musical quotes in one day) Some stuff WTF is a portal. Grrrr... I have a 55-gallon drum of whoopass here and I know how to use it. Music... hrmmm... how about Van Morrison's _Moondance_. I have some reservations about recommending this album... 1) It's overplayed 2) It's kinda cheesy 3) It's Van Morrison. On the other hand this album is wonderfully musical and graceful. Into the Mystic makes me cry... every time. I guess this would be my answer to someone else's Steve Miller Band. Tuna is good. I've been walking up to Merritt's bakery (a very decent bakery near school) most mornings lately. This really is a nice mellowing influence for the rest of my day. The neighborhoods just south of campus are oddly relaxing. Movies: DONT DO IT! There is nothing worth seeing out right now, as far as I can tell. If you have information leading to the capture of a good movie please contact your local me, immediately. Plug: Guyville. It's Maxim except without the things that make Maxim cool in it's over-the-top obnoxious way. Seriously though, it is not half bad. Clueless guys like myself need a lot of help. Thank god for the internet... it will help my social skills and raise my IQ. Gals, if you have advice for guys send it to me and I'll create a new column for it. That would be fun. "If you fall, I will catch you, I'll be waiting... time after time " As always, if this sparks you or you want to share something with me, please do so. |