I ran across the website of an incredibly talented artist last night. I'll link it below. It really got me thinking about how people define themselves...

How do you define yourself? Do you pick a package deal? Did you choose to be a punk? A goth? A raver? How did you arrive at that decision?

I can't say that I've ever really attempted to define myself in any sort of concrete way or by slotting myself in some convenient pigeonhole (not that I see anything wrong with that). I tend, I like to think, to just be. I order things around myself for comfort. I'm neither neat nor organized. I pick my friends based on the things they say, more or less. I'm happy when things are good, gloomy when the weather's right, horny most all the time, funny when I can be. I dunno.

I suppose the fact that I can't characterize myself in any way that is tidy or manageable that puts me at a disadvantage if I were to try and write fiction... I mean, how can I make up another person when I can't make myself up. I suspect, though, that that's not fair, really. I just am... characters I might create if I were so inspired aren't as things stand now.

I definitely don't define myself, for example, by the way I dress. I suppose, though, that it does reflect a handful of the facets of my personality pretty accurately. I've always thought it might be fun to try dressing up as something, and not just for halloween. It would just be dressing up, though. While I like to think of my personality as pretty flexible there a things at the core of me that seem constant.

I'm not sure where I'm going with all of this. You should go look at mooncalfe's art. It's lovely. Some of the most intricate and dark art I've seen in a long time. Rich in the casual sensuality that seems to pervade goth culture. Go look.

love -J