I just finished reading Douglas Coupland's Miss Wyoming. Gawd! The man can WRITE. He scares me. His style is, for lack of better words, slick. It's daunting. I don't know if I cared much for the story itself, it was kind of a cheesy genxified love story, but ohhhh the style. I wish I had this kind of polish. Politicians wish they had this kind of polish. It's like reading a waterfall.
I would truly love to ask him about his stories. They all seem to share one common theme: escape from modern mediocrity. In Generation X his characters escape weird psuedo-lives in palm springs hell to some left-as-an-exercise-to-the-reader lifestyle in Baja. In Girlfriend in a Coma the protagonists experience the apocalypse but are returned in time charged with a mission to shape the world and the power to do so. In Miss Wyoming John and Susan escape the surreal but terrifyingly clever and chic hollywood grind. I wonder if this coherence is real or if I imagine it. If the former is the case does he realize it?
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I'm struggling to express myself.
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Once again I'm am considering returning to school full-time. I think that I would really like to study languages. Of course, that's a pretty broad and abstract statement. I'm still trying to figure out what I mean.
The whole prospect scares me, sort of.
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I know that I've said in the past that I think too much... and it has the net result of preventing me from acting. For some reason I have to re-realize this fact about once a month. What a weird deal. You'd think I would be able to remain mindful of such a simple truth.
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I'm curious.... indulge me. When you look at me or think about me... if you do... how do you perceive me? I spend so much time analysing myself that I lose sight of the larger issues. Anyway, if you're feeling punchy, take a shot at this one. Give me the good and the bad. I can take it. ;)
Love, as always,
-Loop
Loop, I do think that going back to school full-time would give you the kind of change you've wanted for a few years now. Are you thinking of going to OU or sticking around TU?
I know that one of the things that I'm struggling to overcome regarding returning to school full time is the fear of disappointment/failure. I don't expect education or a discipline to provide some kind of transendence as I did when I was young, so I reckon its a good way to expose myself to new experiences and probably open some doors for me.
If going back to school stays too daunting - and its probably gonna be some time before you go back anyway - I highly recommend travel. You're of course welcome to visit the East coast through August, and the bay area will blow yer stinkin' mind. Yeah, you should just go to the bay and smoke some fat blunts and go the shore and the museum and stuff. It rules. And you can come down and see me in Austin once I settle in.